谢谢, thank you C:

I felt so blessed for everything these few days. 

Guess I should thank God for these moments in my life. I've made 3 wishes just now (in advance) and one, is dedicated to God. 

I've no idea since when I have this strong faith for God, but I do feel blessed by all that has happened. Really thank you, I'm feeling the love (:

Janice's reply made me so happy, just before a stressful exam :D

Pimpled face, but one of the happiest night. I'm blessed by them people ❤

*很多很多的谢谢，我觉得很幸福 :3*

In YOUR name I pray (:

Tonight, marks a difference in my life perhaps. 

I prayed to a God that I don't know if I'm fully believing in. 

Yet this was the first time I prayed and I cried in the presence of distractions. 

It might be due to the influence of this video that I've watched.

I really don't know, but I know my tears were real and it fell naturally.

In your holy name, 

Amen (":

And here's the video that I was mentioning about. 

A pretty long one, but I guess if I could spare that time out of studying to watch it, YOU can too (:

Jeremy Lin's Testimony - The Story behind Linsanity

Little Things

Little things that made me happy (:

This made my night much more cheerful and motivates me to have more ideas and work harder for assignments! <3

Hoping that I would at least get a notice that the twins have received my letters (:

Special thanks to Patrina! :3

Dare You to Move

Dare You to Move - Jayesslee 

Lyrics:

Welcome to the planet 
Welcome to existence 
Everyone's here 
Everyone's here 

Everybody's watching you now 
Everybody waits for you now 
What happens next? 
What happens next? 

I dare you to move 
I dare you to move 
I dare you to lift 
Yourself up off by the floor 

I dare you to move 
I dare you to move 
Like today never happened 
Today never happened before 

Welcome to the fallout 
Welcome to resistance 
The tension is here 
The tension is here 

Between who you are 
And who you could be 
Between how it is 
And how it should be yeah 

I dare you to move 
I dare you to move 
I dare you to lift 
Yourself up off by the floor 

I dare you to move 
I dare you to move 
Like today never happened 
Today never happened 

Maybe redemption has stories to tell 
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell 
Where can you run to escape from yourself? 
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go? 
Salvation is here 

I dare you to move 
I dare you to move 
I dare you to lift yourself 
To lift yourself up off by the floor 

I dare you to move 
I dare you to move 
Like today never happened 
Today never happened 
Today never happened 
Today never happened before

我好累啊。真得累了。

是否可以别在那么忙吗？

快要放弃了。。

No Matter

Thought of this song again out of a sudden. 

No Matter - Angel

Used to love this song a lot, still loving it :")

Lyrics:

Doesn't Matter who you are with
Doesn't matter where you are going
Don't you know I'm still waiting here for you
And Pray for you

In the sunny days, Suns will light your day
In the windy days, When will lead your way
I have to say, you're my treasure moments
Never gonna walk away

In the rainy days, rains will share my tears 
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away

I'm pretending you are mine
I'm wishing you'll be mine
The moments we share never die
You've make a difference to my life

I'm lovin' this cover too! Oh..how I love their covers C=

Payphone - Jayesslee

Can't wait for their concert! It'll be my very first official concert; plus point, VIP ticket! 

(If only I could afford the VVIP ticket (= )

Lyrics (copied):

I’m at a pay phone trying to call home
all of my change i’ve spent on you
where are the times gone baby
it’s all wrong, we’re at the place we made for two

yeah, i, i know it’s hard to remember
the people we used to be
it’s even harder to picture
that you’re not here next to me
you said it’s too late to make it
but is it too late to try?
and then that time that you wasted
all of our bridges burnt down

i’ve wasted my nights
you turned out the lights
now i’m paralyzed
still stucked in that time when we called it love
but even the sun sets in paradise

i’m at a pay phone trying to call home
all of my change i’ve spent on you
where are the times gone baby
it’s all wrong, we’re at the place we made for two

if happy ever after did exist
i would still be holding you like this
and all those fairytales are full of it
one more stupid love song i’ll be safe

you turned your back on tomorrow
cause you forgot yesterday
i gave you my love to borrow
but just gave it away
you can’t expect me to be a friend
i don’t expect you to care
i know i said it before
but all of our bridges burnt down

i’ve wasted my nights
you turned out the lights
now i’m paralyzed
still stucked in that time when we called it love
but even the sun sets in paradise

i’m at a pay phone trying to call home
all of my change i’ve spent on you
where are the times gone baby
it’s all wrong, we’re at the place we made for two

if happy ever after did exist
i would still be holding you like this
and all those fairytales are full of it
one more stupid love song i’ll be safe

now i’m at a pay phone…

[wiz khalifa]
now work that sh-t
i’ll be right here spending all this money while you sitting round
wondering why wasn’t you who came out from nothing
made it from the botton
now when you see me i’m struting
and all of my cause a way to push up a button
telling me the chances i blew up or whatever you call it
switched the number to my phone
so you never can call it
don’t need my name, or my show
you can tell it i’m ballin’
shish, what a shame coulda got picked
had a really good game but you missed your last shot
so you talk about who you see at the top
or what you could’ve saw
but sad to say it’s over for it
phantom roll out valet open doors
where’s the car way, got what you was looking for
now ask me who they want
so you can go take that little piece of sh-t with you

i’m at a pay phone trying to call home
all of my change i’ve spent on you
where are the times gone baby
it’s all wrong, we’re at the place we made for two

if happy ever after did exist
i would still be holding you like this
and all these fairytales are full of it
one more stupid love song i’ll be safe

now i’m at a pay phone 

Glee-ver Night Live

Had so many random McD moments for the past few days, which in fact did more or less turned my biological clock upside down. But at least I gained something from it (:

Anyways, had homecooked spaghetti for lunch yesterday, thanks to Calvin for the treat!

And a sip of Hoegaarden too :P

Deleted quite a number of friends in my Facebook list; which some I don't even remember approving or adding them! Ridiculous. How is it possible for me not to know them and they're in my friend list? I don't approve people I don't know usually. Hmm..

Couldn't resist my temptations any longer yesterday night.

Intended to watch Glee latest episodes (2 at once) before starting my engine to study for the night, and I ended up tearing during and after watching. Reminding me of good old days (":
And it's a tribute to the late Whitney Houston too!

Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me)

My Love Is Your Love

So Emotional

Saving All My Love For You


Okay..The rest of the songs, Google it yourself. LOL
It's sad that they're graduating SOON! :/

Was supposed to study, but couldn't stay up any longer.
Slept at 1am+ and got up today feeling like a zombie with bad flu :/
Starting le engine soon! *determined*
Lack of time! Dying soon D:

Failure In Disguise

Never really have the mood to study recently. 

Trying all sorts of ways to keep myself focused.

Brisk walking is one of it, and I hope it's gonna work.

My days and nights are all upside down; 

studying/chit chatting and staying up from noon till next morning, then sleep in the morning (about 8/9am).

Another point is that the weather's really crazy! It's either crazily hot, or rain all of a sudden but the heat is even worse after the rain. Gahh!

McDonald's probably my second hostel over here during this period of time. Lol

Failure In Disguise - Jayesslee's originals!
This is one good song that I feel I have to share with all (:


Lyrics:
Have you ever felt like you were the only one on the road?
Have you ever wondered, "Where has everybody gone?"
Have you ever felt abandoned?
Have you ever felt alone?

Have you ever felt like just crying out for help?
And then did you wonder "Will they even understand?"
Have you ever felt a pain you could not bear?
But the world, it goes around just fine anyway.

Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up.

Have you ever felt like you just stepped over the line?
And then, did you just pretend that everything was fine?
Have you ever felt nobody knows who you are?
Have you ever felt like a failure in disguise?

Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
I won't give up.

I Will Survive/Survivor

"Survivor / I Will Survive"

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along

And so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here, with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second, you'd be back to bother me

oh now, go walk out the door
Just turn around now
Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh, so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry, but now I hold my head up high

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

Thought I couldn't breathe without you
I'm inhaling
You thought I couldn't see without you
Perfect vision
You thought I couldn't last without you
But I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without you
But I'm livin'

Thought that I would fail without you
But I'm on top
Thought it would be over by now
But it won't stop
Thought that I would self destruct
But I'm still here
Even in my years to come
I'm still gon be here

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

On no no I
I will survive
For as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
And I've got all my love to give
I'll survive
I will survive
Hey hey

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

I will survive

Looking for motivation, and keeping the self strong (:

Appreciate (珍惜)

人就是那么奇怪。

当你失去了，你就会懂得怎么珍惜你所拥有的。

生活在这个世界上，真的要懂得珍惜。

不懂得珍惜的人，永远不会觉得幸福。

不管拥有多少，都依然会觉得不幸福的。

所以朋友们，记得要学会珍惜和懂得满足哦！

Humans, we're really one weird species.

One will never know how to appreciate. Once you've lost it, then only you'll learn how to appreciate.

Everyone living on this planet, should know how to cherish; doesn't matter things, or people.

If one does not know how to cherish, he/she will never feel the happiness;

no matter how much one has.

My dear friends, please learn how to cherish everything you have and also be contended. 

Then you'll see that happiness isn't that hard afterall (:

Week 10 of Y1T3

Last week, was indeed a very memorable week for me.

Went home on a Friday night, then back in Kampar for meeting early in the morning on Sunday.

So..Last Saturday was MGS gathering, and I went as a senior of SMC's 4th Unit Rangers.

It was OKAY I would say. Not very awesome, but not that bad either.

Nothing much, just spent the time watching their performances and encouraging them juniors.

Gatherings would NEVER be the SAME again. Sigh.. (if you know what I meant).

Anyhow, congratz to the juniors for the awards! (:

Okay, back to Sunday.

So, I came back early in the morning, without breakfast, just to find out that the meeting hasn't even started.

But nevermind, after all those "talks", we finished up our decoration for the Guardian Angel board.

Oh yea, went out to Tesco and town to get some stuffs in between too.

It was overall a great event I would say. Not as many participants as we expected, but it's still good (:

Somehow, this event reminds me a lot of those moments in SMC; as a guide, a ranger, or even an interactor.

Especially those blood, sweat, tears, joy moments during the preparation of The Revolving Realm! (if you know/remember what was those moments)

We have had sleepless nights in order to complete the things-to-use for the event, but I kinda like that (I know I'm weird).

During the event, we pranked some of those participants by writing some funny "letters" or "notes" to them. Haha. Some of them actually replied to the letters! It's a fun experience I would say (:

The event ended on last Friday morning. We've learnt that caring is one of the very important element in life. Hopefully the participants get it and practice it too!

I've had my very first presentation last week too! We doesn't need to be dressed in formal, but smart casual.

Was not a really awesome one, but I felt that we're still good. Probably the FASTEST presentation that I've ever done cause Ms. Lucy actually asked us to be faster even before we start/when we're talking. LOL!

At least we all didn't hold any cue cards, and did prepare some small gift for the "audiences".

Ms. Chong wore our cute little green ribbon! :D

And regarding my previous post (link), it was really a shocking news. That day was really emotional for me, and it made me ponder about so many things that I've done in the past. Memories.. 

Hope the things that I've learnt will remain and be fresh always in my mind and heart.

Back in Ipoh early on Friday. Lunch in JJ with le mom. Then shopped for a while for BBQ event on this Thurs. Can't wait! Spent the weekend doing assignments, and OMG! 

I've never felt so guilty before throughout my time in Kampar. 

I'VE TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT ASSIGNMENT DEADLINE IS ON MONDAY (today)!

Luckily my groupmate called to ask about the details seriously! Phew..

Anyhow, I'm really greatfull for le groupmates (:

Dropped by le Alma Mater (SMC) with Princess Jeannie today. 

Dropped a note on the Rangers board too.

Then, we headed over to Chatime to just chill out. Silly princess literally threw back the money into le car thru' the window after I dropped her home. Told ya no need right? Tsktsk.

Btw, Mandy returns too! Mandy gave le iPad a name, Paddy. LOL! 

And her Samsung Galaxy Tab 10.1, Tabby (which is a cat!). Haha

Got home and packed up, then drove back here to Kampar.

The journey was fine, not very jam nor jam-free either.

Had a blessed dinner with le friends (Jamie, Gracey, Sharon, HueyTing) at old town.

Then we decided to go for karaoke session, but too bad "Big A Karaoke" closed down and we can't find "The Voice". Instead, we headed over for a pool experience at MaxBreak! 

It was as noob as ever cause we're all inexperienced! HHAHAHA!

But still, fun times (:

This video's good! (except for the fact that they're oversized :P )

Anytime You Need A Friend - The Beu Sisters <3

Vitamin C - Friends Forever. Those were the days (:

- P/s: Pictures couldn't be uploaded :/

21st March 2012

I know I should be sleeping at this hour, but I just have to share out my feelings today.

I've never thought of such traumatic events would actually happen in life, 

well..at least not to somebody that I know. 

But that made me recall my grandpa's death. 

We won't know, if what we hold, 

what we have today will be there the next minute or it will just disappear. 

But one thing for sure is that, we have it NOW.

So why don't grab it tight now, rather than regretting in the future?

Appreciate everything and everyone around you, that care for you. 

Even if he/she is just an acquaintance, appreciate still!

We'll never know if this acquaintance that we have now would be here the next moment.

Well..I've finally watched Glee's Season 3 Episode 14 - On My Way, 

and I find this episode unbelievably matched my feelings today; all of them! 

I teared in the class today, and I teared again while watching this.

I just gotta share these songs with everyone out there, and also Evelene, my dear friend.

Facts will always remain as facts, we couldn't change it. 

But we can always make new facts (=

Glee cast - Fly/I believe I can fly

Glee - What doesn't kill you (stronger)

I knew I shared this before, but it is really powerful. Great song!

Glee - Here's To Us

I would like to borrow this song and dedicate it to all those I knew, known, know, and will know out there. Here's to a better us! <3

Smile (:

One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful

I find this song addictive, and I find them cute too. Haha

Things that I've got for myself with the RM200 free book vouchers. 

Well, RM150 to be exact cause RM50 was spent by cousins (:

What's in the pile? My first ever "Golden Book of Desserts", books entitled Eat Pray Love, and a memoir of Jaycee Dugard about her Stolen Life, erasers, Pilot pens, and some craft accessories too! 

Was supposed to get some crepe papers for flowers too, but Popular doesn't allow discounts before I get my membership card :/ Had to line up to get my membership card in another lane after paying, wth?

Okay..these random posts recently are better than long long posts once in a few months right? So..yeah. Sorry for the randomness as I don't know how to post every bit of my feelings in the last few months. Random me blog shall be from now onwards (:

Songbird

Naya Rivera (Santana) singing Songbird to Heather Morris (Brittany) on Glee.

I felt that their relationship is so special, even in real life.

They're best friends, and this song in fact, is really lovely (:

:/

Glee - Landslide (Naya Rivera, Heather Morris, Gwyneth Paltrow)

This song makes me sad :/

Lyrics

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
and I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well, the landslide brought me down

oh, mirror in the sky, what is love
can the child within my heart rise above
can I sail through the changing ocean tides
can I handle the seasons of my life

uh uh... uh uh, uh uh....

well, I’ve been afraid of changin'
cause I’ve built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
children get older
and I’m getting older too

Well, I’m getting older too

So.. take this love and take it down
yeah, and if you climb a mountain and you turn around
and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well, the landslide brought me down

and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well maybe...
well maybe...
the landslide will bring you down 

Current addicts!

Glee - Stereo Hearts!

Glee - What doesn't kill you (stronger)

Glee - La Isla Bonita ft. Ricky Martin (HOT! :D)

Glee - We Found Love 

Glee - Let Me Love You

Glee - Without You

Glee - Smooth Criminal

Jayesslee - I won't give up! (Thumbsup!)

Jayesslee - Dare you to move 

Jayesslee - Officially Missing You (LOVE!)

This song is the first song that I've heard from them, 

and made me fall in love with their voices and character. 

They gave me strength to continue during my difficult times (:

Actually there are many more songs, but then too many that I don't know how to list! Haha

Trimester break's ending!

Right. So..I've abandoned my blog once more.
First of all, forgive the different format and stuffs for this post cause I'm blogging from my iPad.
I now declare, I am officially BROKE after all those outings these few weeks.

First 2 weeks of holidays, I gave myself away. Spent so much on outings, drinks, karaoke sessions, etc! You name it.

A few outings with the sweet_15 group, if you know who I meant. Well, my fellow girls back in school days. Xinyi's finally back from Indonesia for a week. Met up twice, random, but I like them (:
We had a few yumcha sessions where we just sit down and catch up with each other's life; we had 2/3 karaoke sessions (yelled our lungs out?); breakfast in stadium, then random places like parade, back to school, Chatime, laksa in Bercham, euro house, etc. All those moments, oh, how I love them!

I had outing and overnight moments with them girls too! I mean, the rangers people. You won't know how much I miss those times we had together for gathering, activities, camps, LMs!, meetings, lepak/living in denial times, practices, etc! Too many to be named! How I wish we could just turn back time and stay there. Lol.
Anyways, we first met up in Euro House; located in town, behind Ritz Kowloon/Garden, nearby MGS, opposite The Star, at 7pm plus. That's my first visit there. The food and drinks there's not bad at all. And one more bonus, there's free flow of red wine for ladies on Mondays to Thursdays! Awesome! :D
We spent a few hours there, having small chats, loads of laughter. The few of us even had shots at the bar table when most of the rest are chatting about some serious stuffs (studies stuffs?) at our table AFTER STPM. Haha. At first it was just me and Angie to the bar table for refill of wine, ended up having our talks there without the rest. Felt bad, but yeah..felt kinda lost among them when they have their talks you know. College and Form6, it's somehow just different.
After dining, and those shots plus quite some drinks, we played King's Rule. That's my first experience on it too. Too bad some of us can't drink due to reasons, but that didn't spoil the fun much though (: We bid farewell to some that can't go for overnight since there's 11 of us for the dinner, then we left euro and headed to Seven Eleven to get more drinks. Lol!
Oh..not forgetting to mention, I met some other school friends there with their parents too! Phew.. One more thing that girls never fail to do during outings (normally), PICTURES! We went toilet for twice, captured pictures in the toilet and also with those random cars in the car park of the hotel! Hahaha. Will upload those soon! (:
After 7 11, we went back to Sookyee's crib. That's our 2nd sleepover there. We chilled for a while, called anyone we needed to or wanted to call. Then the 5 of them decided to get out to the nearest 7 11 to get tidbits, leaving behind me and Angie; the "happy" ones. We just had our time on the phone, chilling out and all. Then when the girls were back, we had so much talks and drinks again. From intellectual talks about politics, studies, general knowledge to outrageous lyrics to songs! That's really some good stuff. This time round, not much of kss though. Rested at 4am?, but I woke up every hour in between sleep. Hmm..
The next morning, we decided to go for the yummylicious clay pot noodle again in menglembu but were disappointed. It happened to be closed :/ And so we went to a random shop for breakfast, then back to sy's place and continues chatting while packing up. We skipped lunch cause we were all too full for nasi ganja which is located in town. We all left at noon.
These moments are money can't buy, that's what I truly treasure; friendship (:

Well..I know it's getting boring. Too many words with no pictures, but please bear with me?

Other times during this whole semester break; either rotting at home, went over to see the progress of my new house's renovation, random outings with random friends, out with parents, etc. Oh wait, there's one thing I forgot to mention. Watching Lie To Me! It's about micro expressions, and I just fell in love with the series after watching a few episodes. Highly recommended! :D

Alright, so..yesterday night. Had dinner with the little Jean and Melenie. Went over to fetch the lil Jean first, then to Mel's where we rounded for like..10mins in that taman? Haha. Don't feel sorry for being forgetful Jean, it's okay (: Then..we are so undecided about where to have dinner. Headed over to Greentown, David's Dinner to try since we've not been there before but it's closed. So, we headed over to Berlin's. That's where the craziness comes in. I ordered a Graveyard and little Brandon asked if I really wanted a Graveyard. Lol. And Jevine kept doing the eyebrows thing to these 2 lil kids. Yes, kids! Cause I'm a TEEN you see. That's the fact, don't deny it, my dear daughters (:
I wished I had recorded those crazy faces of Jean and Mel. Goodness, I can't stop laughing the whole night seriously. Mel can't stop saying the "damnnnn rich" and Jean's acting all like a China girl named Mandy with the slang saying "Yat man yat ko chong". OMG! I thought I was the one having alcoholic drink eh? Hahhahah! Silly girls. Ended up overspent for the night because of the Graveyard till I had to go to the bank :S And no! I DID NOT get to claim back the petrol money from parents! That made me even more broke :/
Anyhow, great times girls. Thanks for curing this poor TEEN from dying of boredom (:

Heck, this looks like a freaking essay now! Lol. That's all for now I guess. Pictures will be posted in the coming post I hope. It's so inconvenient to post pictures here while using iPad :(

-toodles!-